As I've been really digging deep these past few weeks, the Holy Spirit hit me hard. It cut deep. Real deep. In fact, it cut me so deep that I began to bleed with so much filth and waste that I knew was inside of me, but I was refusing to let it go.
I asked God to set me free and he said, " The TRUTH shall make you free." We've all heard it many times, but how many of us actually really like to hear the truth? We like to be told we are beautiful, we are great, wonderful job. However, there is another truth that requires us to be a bit uncomfortable and that is the truth concerning our will versus the will of God.
I struggled with this because I believed SELF truth (the lies I believed about me) was my truth. When really my truth is the will of God and what God has to say concerning me. I asked God to search my heart and reveal my shortcomings. This is what the Lord said:
"Repent and mean it from your heart. I am with you and have never left you. You left me. I've been here all this time and I've not been your focus. Everything is for you and what you want. To get to the next level you need ME and more of ME. Repent and mean it from your heart. Take your mind off everything around you and just focus on spiritual things. My people perish for their lack of knowledge"
I was in shock, but deep down I knew exactly what the Lord was saying. We ask God to forgive us and then go back to the same old ways. But true repentance is a change of heart, a change of attitude, a change of mind and really a complete turn around.
I think about perishing due to my lack of knowledge and thank God the Holy Spirit took me to this place,
"The Lord is not slow in keeping His promise, as some understand slowness. Instead He is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance." 1 Peter 3:9
"I tell you, no! But unless you repent, you too will all perish." Luke 13:5
Are you tired of not being free? Are you tired of living false truth? This was a huge wake up a call for me and I hope it will be for you. Invest more time in His truth. I know it is not the easiest thing to do because we have to unlearn years of pride, selfishness, bitterness, and unwillingness to give up our own way. But I know by the power of the Holy Spirit, the Lords truth will become your reality.
I love you friends,